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Querying My Future

Querying My Future

Job hunting and querying are extremely alike, I’ve found. Cover letters are basically just queries for yourself; an interview is a full or partial request (depending whether it’s the first interview of several or the only one); and those offers of representation / employment seem hard to come by. Also, I’m rapidly losing my nerve with the whole thing, though unlike querying, this is not because I found a plot point that will alter my entire life and therefore need…

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Setbacks and Steps Forward

Setbacks and Steps Forward

The last few days have been a weird mixture of productive successes and deeply frustrating setbacks. And it’s not even like some things have been going universally well and some things haven’t — it’s far more muddled up and mixed than that. Friday got off to a bad start. I cycled to a physio consultation, and when getting off my bike outside, my foot gave way beneath me, turning my ankle over with a worrying snapping sound and spraining it….

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Seasonal Procrastination

Seasonal Procrastination

Sunshine, I’ve concluded, is not conducive to getting work done. It really makes me question why exams are held in the summer, because it’s the absolute worst time of year for getting anything done. I mean, sure, it’s still cold outside at the moment — it’s April in England, we’re lucky to have sunshine at all. But I woke up this morning, saw the bright blue sky (a far cry from yesterday’s foreboding, overcast day), and knew that I wasn’t…

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Dancing One Coffee At A Time

Dancing One Coffee At A Time

I don’t like talking about money, because frankly, it’s awkward. I don’t like trying to monetise my blog, because I feel it gives the wrong impression about why I do this whole social media thing, and it’s not because I think I could make a career from rambling about my gender crises and writing struggles. I’ve already talked about money too much this year what with the whole ‘YouTube de-monetised my account‘ thing, and it feels weird to bring it…

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An Ethical Diet Is A Luxury

An Ethical Diet Is A Luxury

One of the most frustrating things about being chronically ill is all the little choices you don’t realise you no longer have until somebody guilt-trips you for not making them. And yes, this is (partly) about veganism. Look, I’ll put it out there before I start: I have some good friends who are vegans, and I respect their choices. Hell, I even admire them, and occasionally envy them. This is not a post saying that veganism is bad, because I…

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Eating Better Without Thinking About Food

Eating Better Without Thinking About Food

I don’t have a great relationship with food. In fact, that’s an understatement. I have a bad relationship with food and exist on the perpetual verge of a worse one. I have good reasons for this. First up there are the body image issues, which in my case have very little to do with being attractive to an arbitrary observer and a lot to do with being trans and chronically ill and thus spending my life feeling like I’m in…

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Much Adulting, Very 22, Wow

Much Adulting, Very 22, Wow

I feel like I write one of these posts every year: looking at my life and panicking that it doesn’t match up to some arbitrary standard of maturity. But ageing is weird, and birthdays are weird, and tomorrow I turn 22. 22 on the 22nd. At least it’s a pleasing number. I sort of designated yesterday my birthday, because I have so much work to do tomorrow and I couldn’t do it yesterday because my parents came to visit me,…

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YouTube Won’t Pay Me Anymore

YouTube Won’t Pay Me Anymore

As a blogger, I’m basically a bus: I’ll go weeks without posting and then I’ll post two days in a row. But I was prompted to write another post because I┬áreceived an email today from YouTube, telling me that they’re bringing in a new policy and under the terms of it, my account will no longer qualify for monetisation. Not only would I need 1,000 subscribers (I currently have 522), but I’d also need 4,000+ hours of watchtime each year,…

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A Mixed Start On 2018 Goals

A Mixed Start On 2018 Goals

One of the things I’d like to do more this year is focus on what I have achieved rather than what I haven’t. That’s proving a little tricky so far — I’m behind on work, for a start, so all I can think about is how I haven’t done any of the four essays I’m supposed to be doing, rather than concentrating on the fact that I’m ahead on my dissertation, even though the latter is probably a more positive…

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What I Did In 2017

What I Did In 2017

Yesterday, I wrote … well, I guess you’d call it an emotional roundup of 2017, looking ahead to 2018. But today I wanted to look at things on a more tangible level, to try and keep track of what I actually did this year, as well as what I felt. These aren’t all what you’d call achievements (some of them are), but they’re things I did. Some are linked to old posts, in case you want to read more about…

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